Susan's Story:
August 4th 2014 goes down as a life changing day in my life. I live in Burlington, Ontario and on that day, two months’ worth of rain fell on our city, creating mass chaos. In the aftermath of the rainfall I was left with two and a half feet of sewage in my basement and $10,000 worth of insurance to clean and rebuild a $50,000 job. That’s crazy math! In the months following we did what we needed to rebuild our lives. What I didn’t know is that this event was to be the beginning of a journey for me – that it was so much more than a financial mess and sewage in my basement
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Clearly, the easiest thing to do, as a self-employed person in a financial bind, is to work more and harder. I spent the remainder of 2014 and all of 2015 working like crazy barely taking time for much of anything outside of my freelance writing work, client healings and routine life. My down time from work was spent doing the typical running a family and watching my children’s activities. I was saying yes to everything, but myself. It’s an easy trap to fall into and once you’re wrapped in this way of being it’s hard to see that you’re in it.
As I rolled into 2016 I felt exhausted. I had gained weight. My body ached and my feet hurt every morning when I rose from bed. I felt much older than a woman in my early fifties. My thoughts were to get more active. I began to power walk.
In March blood tests revealed that I was had Adrenal Fatigue (stage III) AND I was intolerant to forty percent of the foods that I was consuming. Like a tower my life crumbled around me. I could almost hear it! The instructions from my doctor were: stop any physical activity, meditate more, return to Yoga, and figure out the stressors in my life.
I discussed with my family that I need to say no and they need to stop asking. I made the decision to pull back on the amount of freelance writing work I was doing. I realized that in my panic to make more money after the flood, I took on more freelance writing and I had stepped back from the healing work that that brings me joy and pleasure.
I’m not going to lie, I was frightened when I sent the email asking for a reduction in freelance work, but I knew that this was the right decision. Slowly I felt better. My stress levels decreased, I was eating a different diet. I had a slight increase in clients in my healing business and I toddled along. My thoughts began to lean towards retirement. My mother retired at the age of fifty-five and I thought about how nice it would be to not work and spend my time keeping the house, for lack of a better phrase. I tip toed slowly into spring. I was enjoying the warmer weather. I felt calm, and on reflection, the pendulum had swung to the complete opposite side of working like a crazy woman. Ahhh! Peace, calm and tranquility.
One sunny Monday in May I received a phone from my husband at mid-day. He was calling to let me know that due to restructuring, he had lost his job after 14 years with his company. The panic button was pushed. In my mind, red flashing lights began and an annoying emergency alarm was buzzing in my brain. After several deep breaths, I calmed my mind. (Cont'd at Right)
When my husband arrived home, I realized that this was the best thing for him. He hated his job. Stress left his body almost immediately. So there we were.
The earlier events of 2016 forced me to deal with my stress and being in a position to remain calm was a God send. I was now there to help my husband be calm and for him to take some “down time”Time to restore and to figure out where he wanted his path to go. At the same time, I realized that I was his mirror. The yin/yang of our lives was before me. There was no way that I could retire at this point in life. On reflection, I almost feel like the Universe was laughing and saying, “You don’t want to retire! Look at all this stuff you need and want to do!”
The summer passed blissfully. My husband was the most relaxed I had seen him in a long time. He was learning to ride the waves of applying for jobs. For me, I felt I was on the precipice of something big. I could feel a stirring inside that I hadn’t felt in a long time. I was searching and figuring out, if retirement wasn’t the answer, what was?
In September I was introduced to Colour Mirrors, an amazing system of dual coloured, energized bottles that reveal information about our thought patterns and what we hold to be true. This wonderful system helped me transform areas of my life that no longer worked for me, and identified where I was blocked. The system also helped to reveal my gifts and talents.
In October, I did an intensive course and became a practitioner. As I continued to work with this system, I realized that as much as I enjoyed the teachings, I was transforming my own life. I was learning and incorporating the basic principles of the system into my day to day life. My life was becoming a lot easier. I was learning to judge less and love more. I was learning to forgive, to live more authentically and see that everything is perfect.
In January of this year, I realized that had my husband not lost his job, I would have been sliding into a retirement mind set, instead of rebranding my business, and looking for ways to expose the world to wonders of Colour and the Colour Mirrors System. I thanked him. I have a renewed sense of self, a joie de vivre, and a greater understanding of manifesting my life.
I look back to my flood of 2014 with a smile. I can clearly see that from then until now everything was an intricate tapestry lovingly woven to help me arrive at this place of joy. Funny how life works like that!